Last year in June I bought an eyelash fern and it puked within a couple weeks of owning it. I was so bummed out because it really was a cute little plant. (It was a completely spur of the moment buy to fill a terrarium. I am seeing a pattern with my impulse buys that they don’t fair as well as my studied purchases have done.)

It basically molded in the terrarium and it didn’t exactly die right away – it had a single leaf left, so I took it out of the terrarium and put it in a pot, keeping it in a corner and just watered it here and there. The leaf eventually molded and I thought it was dead at that point, but didn’t throw it out right away and the craziest thing happened…it had some new growth and I was ecstatic. I remember taking photos and showing my husband the new growth and just being happy it was trying to make a comeback.

And then it just tanked once more and I finally trashed it.

I felt awful and avoided the trash can for a bit so I didn’t bring the guilt of what I did back to the forefront of my mind, ahaha.

At first I felt bad for not figuring out how to make the plant thrive but I can’t know success and improvement without failing or questioning things. After that thought I remembered it’s just a plant and there are more of them – as long as I’m doing my best and not being bad plant person, a plant dying here and there isn’t bad. I’m just gonna stay away from any plant that has the word fern in the name for a while, ahaha